Summer school is over and I'm a little ball of energy + yesterday
I need to recordify yesterday! I have tooo much energy right now. D: But I’m not complaining hahaha.
Summer school is over. I actually managed an to pull off an A in Chemistryyyyyy. So, happy camper.
Theeeeeeeeeeeeeen the plan was to hang out with Andy and Lili for a few hours because we really need to catch up. But of course, nothing ever goes according to plan in our lives and Aden calls us and says (like the creepy guy with trenchcoat in the Stranger Danger videos) to get in his car. So all of us and Anylooooosh drive around like some gangsta armos, then go up into the mountains in an apparently cop infested area (what?? lies) and Aden lets me driiiiiive. I lost my drive-ginity! :D Thank you Aden for being a brave little solider and placing your life in my klutzy hands hahahaha. AND thanks everyone else for not getting out of the car. ;D Note to self: Never get in a car with Lili driving. Next time she will hit the big blue bus. Then we went to his house to jammm, then he took us home. Joyrideee!
A few hours later, I actually managed to convinced my mom to let Lili and I go downtown that night to The Smell (the smell, I soon figured out, was piss and stuffiness from lack of windows hahaha) with everyone to see Tearist and Infinite Body, both of which are amazzzzzing, by the way. Yasmine from Tearist was the sweetest person and had incredible energy. And IB was this shy kid who I don’t know if he was synthesizing or what he was doing but he made some beautiful music.
Of course a half hour after getting home I crashed. But not before thinking about that there is a hell of a lot to get done in the next 30 days. I need to find a way to see my girl. <3 I need to get a job and get my permittt. I need to finish a shitload of summer work. And I need to relax because I can’t can’t can’t.
Aden’s manly driving. In da subuuurbzzz beeetch.
I was really excited about that stamp. :D :D I kept seeing unicorns and flying cars, so it was quite appropriate. Those are Lili’s feet btw hahahaha.
No more pictures though. ): Phone’s full. I need a new memory card. But anyway, wrapping this up.
Thank you Aden, Lili, Alenoush, Rene, and Andy for a wonderful day. <3 I needed it like nothing else.
for reminding me what an asshole you truly are. I was beginning to forget.
You know, I really hate it when whiny teenagers complain about their parents. I always think, “Dude, they’re your fucking parents. They bitch because they love you. They’re annoying because they care. They don’t let you stay out until 5 in the morning because they worry for your safety, ungrateful little brat.” This mentality is what helps me stay calm and understand my mom’s paranoia. It’s why I give her a kiss, a smile, and an “Okay” when things don’t go my way with her.
But I really think I am completely justified in saying that a man who wants nothing from his daughters except for favors (you know, like writing every single one of his English papers for English 101 so he doesn’t fail out and so he can get his job) and blind obedience—and one who says that his daughter is “an idiot who deserves nothing but pain and being made to feel bad”—is a failure as both a parent and as a human being.
I really miss Aden. I feel like I’m a bad friend to him—and to everyone else, really—for having no time for anything. I need to get my life organized, and my priorities in order. Aden kind of opened my eyes to that when he said that he had given up on me (doing anything I say I’ll do). It’s a sad thing to be given up on by a best friend. It hurts both parties. It makes you hopeless, beyond repair. But I really don’t think I am. I just think I have a lot to learn.
“But her strong sense that neither she nor any human being deserved less than was given, did not blind her to the fact that there were others receiving less who had deserved much more. And in being forced to class herself among the fortunate she did not cease to wonder at the persistence of the unforeseen, when the one to whom such unbroken tranquility had been accorded in the adult stage was she whose youth had seemed to teach that happiness was but the occasional episode in a general drama of pain.”—
to get going. I find myself unable to do anything without something forcing me to. Even with things that I want to do. I don’t know why I’m like this, and I’m hoping to change it. Anyway, I think I have found a new push. (:
Number one summer goal: get permit. Get license soon after. Road trip it to Hollister next summer with Rene to see Rachel. <3 That would be a very happy summer.